So many things that I have learned...
I finally know what it feels like to be a servant...to serve those who you love. I finally know what it feels like to think that spit-up on a sweater is no big deal. To change a dirty diaper with the only thought of concern being how quickly you can clean a little bottom - not about how disgusted you are to do it. I know what it means to walk holding someone for hours as if they were weightless. I know what it feels like to sing until my throat is hoarse. I have learned that there are some expenses far more satisfying than new clothes and regular haircuts. I know how it feels to survive on restless, broken sleep because you wake up twenty times a night just to hear quiet breathing. I know what it feels like to fold the twenty-fifth cloth diaper of the day every day. I know what it feels like to play bodyguard over someone to protect them from the adoring masses at the grocery store. I can now say that I fill the role of personal chauffeur. And chef. And cupbearer...And jester...I know what it feels like to fill the hardest job I've ever attempted with the longest hours I have ever worked for the smallest pay that I've ever received.
But I now know what peace is when I watch him sleep. And I have received the biggest "thank you" that I've never heard when he smiles at me. And I know love like I've never felt before in my life. And I can say for certain now that God gives strength when you physically don't have strength to stand. And I know how it feels to have true, visible purpose attached to your life. I know what it feels like to have your heart almost burst with pride. I know what it feels like to want to protect someone from all of the evil and pain in the world. I know what it feels like to pray harder than I ever knew that I could for someone. I know what daily tears of thankfulness are.
I know what it feels like to be a mother...
And I know that these days must the be the happiest days of my life.
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There is one more thing.....when you read the heart-felt thoughts of the little one that you have loved for so many years, and to see that they are really happy, and to be so proud of that little squirt that used to look up at you and say, 'I love you Daddy', and to think, well, just a small chance that I actuall did something right in life, now, that's satisfying...I love you so much Googies...and Daddy is so proud of you...... ;)
I just have to tell you that those days will never end. As long as you have your child they will continue. I want you to know that all the days before you are filled with joy. The love you feel will only grow and blossom in future blooms that you can't fathom. I must thank you for the privilege of being your Mama and the opportunity to share in your life and the life of that wonderful grandchild. I love you:) Mama
GOOGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Ally
Another post coming soon Mrs Phreedom?!
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