God answers prayer.

I am sooooo tired. Granted - Hubby helps out when he is at home. But, there are only so many things that Hubby can do for Peanut. He can't feed him. And this must be done every odd hour on the hour - per Peanut. So this leaves me only getting two hours of sleep at a time. Not that I am complaining...I love my little boy more than life itself and would do anything humanly possible to make him happy. I am so greatful that I get the opportunity to stay at home with him. He makes me so happy. But, I am only human. Somehow, God has given me the grace to wake up and have the ability to take care of him. But that doesn't mean that it is easy.

Today, Peanut and I fell asleep after the last time that I fed him this morning. We slept for about 2 and 1/2 hours. (That's a long time for us to sleep all at one time...) My mom was going to come over on her lunch break to help me with him. She rang the door bell, blew the horn, called my phone about a dozen times, called Hubby who then called me about a dozen times. I slept through all of it except the last ring of the doorbell. But then I got downstairs too slowly. I was so tired. I called Hubby and my mom to let them know that everything was okay. Then I changed the baby and fed him again.

I tried to eat lunch - but the baby started crying in the middle of my sandwich. So, I picked him up and rocked him. That is one of the best feelings in the world. My little boy knows how to make all of my stress go away. I was sitting in the recliner praying and rocking my baby and singing old hymns to the baby. (See there, Hubby - I do sing to Peanut. Just not where anyone else can hear - which should be a blessing to the rest of the world...) That's when my brother just happened to stop by to see me and Peanut. Talk about answer to prayer! He held the baby - who actually went about three hours without a messy diaper or a need to be fed - while I finished lunch, made the bed, divided my laundry, and put a load of diapers and sheets in the washer.

I am not sleepy at all now. I am going to start dinner for tonight. Peanut is sleeping peacefully on the floor now. He is so cute! I just am praying that God will help me to be a good mother. I have been a little sad and worried now. I am scared that I will not be able to be the best mother possible for him. I love him so much. I just keep thinking that God gave this baby to me because He thought that I could care for him best - with God's grace, of course. So I am just realizing that I need to be constantly in prayer as I take care of my little man. (Duh!!! I really am hard-headed...) I have begun to pray when I feed my baby, when I change my baby, when I hold my baby...

If you want to see the most beautiful baby in the world...Check out the link on my Hubby's blog. (Palmettophreedumb@blogspot.com)

Hey - just to throw this out there...Does anyone remember the Lance Bass movie that came out about 5 years ago? I feel like making Hubby watch it with me. I never watched it when it was in theaters - though I planned to with some of my girlfriends at the time. Yeah, I think that I will make Hubby watch it. Just because. I love my Hubby. And my baby boy...